No distance left to run

A deeper pains fills me today
After ridding myself of old pains
It shocks me to realize
How I'd grown to befriend misery

Is this masochism in my fate ?!
Or are we all like so ?
Newer pains we hate
When older pains we throw.

Stockholm syndrome ?
Or is this my 'real' home ?
Seeking pleasures from my past
Gloomy shadows that were cast

The deeper pain fills me today
It fills me deep and horrow
A deeper pain kills me today
I have found new sorrow.

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