The search for myself – Part I
It is a moment of creation. An irreversible clockwork has been set into motion. A spark has been lit. This spark will light up a million different lights. It is the instant that knowledge is imparted to a child’s mind. Its virgin brain accepts everything it is fed. What it hears and what it sees. And so begins the mind its long journey, before it is even aware of its own existence and without even being given a choice.
There comes a time in the lives of some people, when they stop living and start thinking about the things they took for granted. An uneasy feel covers one's consciousness like a shroud. The mind becomes aware that something is wrong with the way it perceives reality. For me, that time is now.
The essence of normalcy is the refusal of reality. The human mind lives in a constant need for happiness. It derives happiness sometimes in the form of love or praise and sometimes from just a simple raw pride at being what one is. It constantly reminds itself of why it is happy, always working to look for new reasons to be happy. Happiness is like a fuel for the mind. When it runs out of reasons to be happy a man becomes visibly sad and can even go into depression – an acute state of absence of happiness. And so the mind creates its own comfortable artificial world in which it needs to be happy. The artificial world is a bubble surrounding his life, blinding him, carrying him farther and farther away from reality. The tender mind that was once blank thus becomes an indoctrinated machine hungry for happiness which it consumes endlessly and ruthlessly. At the very core, it understands only one language: that of happiness, its universal currency. I know what you’re thinking. No… there isn’t any such thing as mercy or kindness. Everything is either happiness or the absence of it. Brilliantly, it calculates its every move planning to maximize potentially available happiness. Call it selfish if you will, but it just wants to live on, and it can’t without its fuel.
Which brings us to the question: What is our final aim? Is it to be happy and content with peace love joy and happiness always, or is it to seek the true nature of reality, or in other words, to seek the truth?
What does one gain by knowing the truth, the absolute nature of reality? Happiness? If it were only for the happiness then why take the pains of looking for the truth? Or perhaps its such a huge amount of happiness that its worth it? Perhaps then it is all about just happiness? We would never know, would we?
There comes a time in the lives of some people, when they stop living and start thinking about the things they took for granted. An uneasy feel covers one's consciousness like a shroud. The mind becomes aware that something is wrong with the way it perceives reality. For me, that time is now.
The essence of normalcy is the refusal of reality. The human mind lives in a constant need for happiness. It derives happiness sometimes in the form of love or praise and sometimes from just a simple raw pride at being what one is. It constantly reminds itself of why it is happy, always working to look for new reasons to be happy. Happiness is like a fuel for the mind. When it runs out of reasons to be happy a man becomes visibly sad and can even go into depression – an acute state of absence of happiness. And so the mind creates its own comfortable artificial world in which it needs to be happy. The artificial world is a bubble surrounding his life, blinding him, carrying him farther and farther away from reality. The tender mind that was once blank thus becomes an indoctrinated machine hungry for happiness which it consumes endlessly and ruthlessly. At the very core, it understands only one language: that of happiness, its universal currency. I know what you’re thinking. No… there isn’t any such thing as mercy or kindness. Everything is either happiness or the absence of it. Brilliantly, it calculates its every move planning to maximize potentially available happiness. Call it selfish if you will, but it just wants to live on, and it can’t without its fuel.
Which brings us to the question: What is our final aim? Is it to be happy and content with peace love joy and happiness always, or is it to seek the true nature of reality, or in other words, to seek the truth?
What does one gain by knowing the truth, the absolute nature of reality? Happiness? If it were only for the happiness then why take the pains of looking for the truth? Or perhaps its such a huge amount of happiness that its worth it? Perhaps then it is all about just happiness? We would never know, would we?
1 Comments:
Hey su. Interesting :) I believe different people derive happiness in different ways, which change with time.
keep mailing. Am linking to your blog.
niku
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